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I sit & laugh with friends at what we've all been through
But I still catch my breath when someone mentions you.
We move on, put those dreams away
Hoping that we'll find them come some rainy day.
How could I know that everything would change?
Except the way I miss you.

10:40 AM

9:43 AM hmm, it's good we're fine.(= I'm glad. Sorry for the harsh words. Really.


Anyway, time to bid my goodbyes for I'll be away on the mountains for 8 long days. Hmm..actually, it's not exactly very long luh. I'm glad it's not the usual 2 weeks we normally spend there in China. Well, I'll try to get stuffs for some lovely people. But, like what do they really sell over there eh? So, I'll probably like bring back rocks.

Hai, gonna miss you..loads. byee and take care.(=

9:25 AM So you've finally reacted to that entry below. No doubt it sounded mean. I'm sorry I cant say sorry though, because I really felt that way initially and wrote it out of a spur of fustration. Since I've recently let it go with the decision not to bother about it anymore because I've decided to leave it strictly as your business and bothering about it would only cause more ranting mean entries, I shall just hope you'll not take it heart anymore the way I do. I therefore just seek for you to love your old friends more. New friends are exciting but that doesn't require you to spend time meant for us with them! And also, everything we tell you now, you just had to have him involved eh? So, dear KG, who might be reading this again, I don't think you know me well enough to judge me yet, but I'll have to sadly agree that seemed quite childish actually. Oh wells, sometimes emotions get difficult to handle. and oh, this actually really isnt all about you, rather, it's us. So you just stick to being E's new found 'friend' and keep your comments to yourself. I think I was a little too sarcastic that other time that I think 've hurt your vulnerable heart. so sorry 'bout that because I meant it.

Maybe things will never be the same again.
And, fiy, things werent as simple as you thought, or more like, you want it to be.

8:04 AM So disgusting. Very disgusting. Too disgusting. I'm referring to quite good looking people by the way, who has committed something pretty bad along the lines of betrayal, lust and arrogance. Very turned-off, am I. You just want the best, and you think you've got it. But, I think you've lost it instead. It was something you took for granted or probably couldnt care less about. I'm not being petty mind you. This whole thing is just so wrong. It just cant be explicitly explained. You messed it so much in less than a week. Cut down on the shamelessness please. before I officially decide to pretend not to know you..because, it would have been social suicide by then.

Opps.

I hope this bad bad bad feelings only last momentarily. In the meanwhile, let me rant it away.. RAH.


Exams are not turning out as great as at least passing all. hur. Like whats new? haha. Im too optimistic a student. I should be learn from those who whine over their scripts when they hardly really know what went wrong or over a little mistake in which ultimately doesn't matter because it's just too bad it's over and whats done is done, and eventually they pass with flying colours, giving credit to their smart brain because thats what they've been trying to tell you ever since there was such a thing as exams.


HAHA.

anyway!!

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY TO DEAR TABITHA!!!!

dear tabby,
you have severe growth problems.
im talking about the head.
HAHA.
i still loveeee you though!
sorry i didnt make it that day for your_______.
forgive me ok?
((=
hugs and kisses and lodsa sweet love,
feli!


Theres a 4/6 bbq gathering this Friday. Hello to the many lost friends.
Heh.


Erh..time for some POM POM POM now. A bit too late for hopes to pass. haha
whateverrrr
Goodbye.

8:04 AM It's so hard to know who are friends. Sometimes, things doesn't go your way because of karma. Not because you made it that way. It's KARMA! I'll try to go on without some things that I used to have. I hate to lose things..especially people. You may say, thats one of my greatest fear. I think I'm just being a little pessimistic (again), but what the fuck, I'm just too sensitive luh ok. I'm talking about FriendS btw.


How is it possible to be that shameless? Like seriously man. No offence, but I think it's pretty obvious, even to yourself. Then again, you're just being yourself. Uh oh, thats worse.

Very bitchy. me, you, everyone.

7:07 AM If theres nothing missing in my life, then why do these tears come at night?

What's happening to me?


I'm not in any way hungry. I just want to stuff myself with food. This feels like depression. Yet, no, because what the hell should I be depressed about? Am I making sense? I don't think so. Am I okay? Doesn't seem so. arh! just IGNORE this.


Dear friends and loved ones, do you think I'm weird?