hits and counting :D

I sit & laugh with friends at what we've all been through
But I still catch my breath when someone mentions you.
We move on, put those dreams away
Hoping that we'll find them come some rainy day.
How could I know that everything would change?
Except the way I miss you.

1:34 AM The course manager called to say he was sorry he couldnt get me into business. aiyahh whatever luh. LOM, so be it. I hope it works out for me thats all.


Anyway, I think I kinda screwed up the business stats test today i think. I could see it in his eyes that he wasnt pleased at all when he looked at my paper. OH WELL. there goes again. I realised I sound kinda pessimistic in my entries but I cant help that things are happening this way.

AHH whatever.


I haven seen Catherine in a long time. Haha I know you'll be reading this. I'm telling you I miss you! Lets have a meal sometime soon or after mid sems ok? <3


I really should start studying for mid sems. Especially macro. I'm under the threat of this academic warning thing, which means I better pass that fucking subject or else..I dunno what they'll do to me. Projects' a pain in the ass. According to tatiana teh, we have done the whole damn marketing shit wrongly. Oh no.

Oh, my cousin just called and he was quite funny when he said he knows he can never trust my grandma because he wants to go fishing but she says the weather's a potential storm when in fact it looks nothing of that sort.

I want to go back SAC to visit those sjabians. Been intending to go back since ages but hell their trainings keep clashing with school!

I have nothing better to write about anymore. Oh, my brothers are back from camp. How the serenity just vanished like that. Right now all they do is stick their asses in front of the computer playing stupid games with those annoying sound effects. Ah well, boys.

I just recalled something I find really hilarious but I cant say it here. So I'll just laugh to myself now. Haha oh I don't know why I cant resist laughing into Jason's face. It's not anything mean or what but it started ever since he gave that huge shunning reaction at a screeching marker because he couldn't stand the sound of it. Haha now thinking of it makes me wanna laugh even more. His addiction to warcraft alone is funny already! It's partly due to that southpark video actually. haha! I'm sorry Jason please don't read this. =\

It's not that I have nothing to do so I blog.
I shall make a list of things that makes me laugh..

-Rebecca's hyperventilating laughter
-Tabitha's expressions
-Christabella's odd behaviour
-Tat being Tat.
-Eelin's remarks that hardly makes sense
-Jason. haha
-Ken's retarded jokes
-Southpark!
-F.R.I.E.N.D.S
-Taiwan crappy variety shows

Ok I cant think of anymore yet. I'll add on soon! haha. how I adore the people who bring joy to me! =D


OkIneedtomaketimeforstudyingnowGOODBYE.

7:26 AM For the first time in many months I'm actually glued to my desk racking my brains..

I'm full, but I want to eat and eat and eat. I ate non-stop today. Oh no.

I'm all perked for some serious work now.

I cant wait for saturday! hello horny assembly 5-1 lesbos.((=

&

I'm missin' you. A lot.


Bye.

2:16 PM HELP!! The itch is killing me and worse still, it's leaving red spots all over! HELPPP again!!

I must stop scratching I must stop scratching I NEED to stop scratching!!


I'm starving.
I think I'll order pizza!=D

10:26 AM dear hair, why won't you grow faster? so I wouldn't have fantasies of snipping a lot of you off to have hair like Alice's. not forgetting going blonde.(: haha. but the shade of blonde I want probably needs bleaching which I'm very against. Bleaching kills the hair! I think I just want a change.=\


There's this song I like since secondary two like that, but I've concluded it's jinx because something bad happens after I listen to it. So, I've not listened to it until recently..
I'm not superstitious, am I?

I observe problems so minor, I'm not sure if it's even worth my energy doing anything about them.

7:59 AM I studied in a freezer today. The air conditioners in school are working too well.

Accounts is freaking me out because I don't know no shit man. I hope I will study enough to pass.
Met love after that one hour of macro tut. went to paya lebar there to change his spoilt modem where we walked quite a distance to search for a building which was actually just right beside the bus stop. After which we headed to some place to play pool. okay, I really suck so much at that game I'm beginning to feel quite ashamed of even trying to play. haha. NO way. I'll keep learning.(= Hehs.
Got home at 9 plus, bathed, settled down for Ghost Whisperer accompanied with a lot of dark chocolate ice cream, followed by some instant noodles and water. hur.



Right now, I feel like crap after a particular phone call. I'm sorry. Thats pretty much all I can say. I understand why you had to call. You were drunk too. I don't wish you to be like that either. Tell me, what can I do, when my heart leads its own life. Yet again, I'm sorry.

8:20 AM And so I got into my second choice, LOM. But, you know..it's like my 2ND choice. Isn't 1st choice always the best? Cause thats what you've intended to want? But instead got played out and the 2nd choice became your destiny. To make my situation a little more difficult to handle, theres such a thing as 'appeal'. So, you actually get to choose to fight for your 1st choice, but, the problem has always been that I don't know what I want. Just when I thought the 1st choice was for me, was it heaven's will that gave me the 2nd choice? They made this confused idiot choose all over again. Life is getting tricky for her, the way things ain't going her way for a far too long time.


What is the future bringing for me?
is this heaven's will?
if so, should I follow it?
but, is heaven's will always right?
I'm clueless about what I want and what's for me.
thus I'm never gonna be able to plan my life
let fate play my game shall we?
far too risky?
I don't know. I never knew.


Should I go to a fortune teller?

6:53 AM Brother's back from aussie!! and he bought so much chocolates!!

CHEERS!

He also bought a pretty roxy wallet for me! and other nice stuffs too! For the first time, I should give a nod at your relatively good taste I never thought you had. haha I LOVE YOU BROTHER.


I don't like school on Tuesdays cause theres 3 lessons in a day. Is it in the genes that I can't do economics for nuts because I never seem to know shit about anything? )= Nope, shouldn't blame genes. Like today's micro quiz, looking at it without really reading it yet gave me a headache already. Tat already finished her first part of the quiz while I haven even answered a single one. No need to tell me, I know thats really loserish, not mentioning my hopeless macroeconomics there and there.


There's supposed to be a fair lot of activities tomorrow, but it seems like projects are priority. Damn shits. I'm trying to study stats but hours passed and I'm only done with _ page(s). Fill in the blank and I'll present you a "know-feli-so-well" award. Right.

I realised my chains fetish is not over like I thought it was. Same for online shopping. Shit, I made a promise.)= Self-control, Feli!


I should start on a fresh hobby instead. Like reading or some sort of exercise. Or maybe I could go back to collecting stickers like the younger days.

Ugh! Nonsense is making its way here. I should say my goodbyes.
"GOODBYE!"

8:34 AM If I could have everything in the world, that'd be great.

You gain and lose things, as they say. I don't like that line very much. I think read too much into things, such that it only leaves unnecessary worry and disppointment. Or, do I ought to be grateful for being able to do that?

That was so unnecessary.


Anyway, hugs and kisses to my bestest friends for that really good surprise today! Haha, I should say rebecca was really convincing throughout the whole thing especially about "the eagle is flying! the eagle is flying!" line that I foolishly believed when she told me it was an animation project she's on at the moment. HAHA. Thank you lovely people, for the banner the card the cake that you all couldnt resist smashing on my face and 'thank you' tabitha carthigasu for your solely created touching story on that tissue paper..tHaNks ah
to those who werent there and sent your love still, thank you people. I think I can feel it.(=


Alright, I want and need to watch Step Up soon!! Why does it seem like everyone has already caught that show! ugh! dumb rebecca! haha!
sorry becks, i just had to do that.

9:22 AM And so, my birthday passed, just like any other normal day, except that it's lovelier with the sweet sweet well wishes and of course, you made it the best.(= Thanks for everything, love.

Had a great birthday session with the classmates on Friday! Thank you all sweet little cupcakes for the cake the dinner and the present!<3

Mummy said I could choose where to eat for lunch today, and apparently we ended up in wisma atria food republic because of the crowded lunch hours in the restaurants..)= dad being dad, hates the crowd. Hehs but it doesn't matter! I know papa and mama still loves me although I cant assure that they like me as much.. hahaha! IM JUST KIDDING. They like me as much as they love me okay! =

I think I'm skipping stats lecture tomorrow to meet beckaa. But I'm feeling a little guilty for not attending it because the damn mid-sem tests are just around the corner! RAH. It's okay fel, you wouldnt even learn anything by sitting there in the first place! so, oh well. And there's like macro lecture in the morning which I'm so dammit tempted to skip as well!!! RAH. Feli, be a god dammit good student for once!! Alright, I shall go for it then..):


I <3>
Most of all, I <3>

Wednesday, November 15, 2006

9:05 AM

It's 1am and I'm hungry and I'm pms-ing. Fuck the emotions. I have yet to start on stats but even flipping the pages seems like a chore. Ugh, shut up damn tummy. It's too late for food okay! My mind feels very blank now. I'm not sure if knowing those horrible facts is beneficial for me, but somehow, it's still good to know whats going on behind your back, especially when it involves people who are less than a metre away from you everyday. All that pretense, all that facade, it must have been hard on you. You don't mean harm, it might be unintentional, or even just to cover up, but I don't actually care. Just shut the fuck up okay?

Do I sound angry? If I do, don't get hurt alright? If not, you might start your tantrums all over again and I'll start ranting like this again. I don't like feeling so negatively. Understand?

Be a good child and I'll give you a poisoned sweet like how you did.

Sunday, November 12, 2006

7:42 AM

When the Green Eyed Monster appears you can guarantee misery will be close behind. You'll find it will eat you up, give you a good chew and then spit you out - leaving you feeling even more sorry for yourself than you did before. Unfortunately, it often creeps up without you knowing...


When marina square with papa and mama, ate at genki sushi (: ,spent a crap load of time at the singtel christmas fair. papa had this $500 dollars voucher(!!) which he decided not to waste it on me anymore ever since i unintentionally adopted the habit of losing phones much too often for his tolerance. =(
I like country manna and the soup with that pastry thing on top and the piano which plays nice music by itself.(:
Oh I bought a new mouse which I think is really cute and mouses well.
I cant wait for my chocolate phone!
I'm getting kinda random.
Oh, I take time to feel the right emotions.
I don't know why I said that but it's true, if you get it.
The mood's changing...

im out.

Thursday, November 09, 2006

5:58 AM

Lisa Goh messaged me this morning, "Today is your birthday right?!" "NO lisa! think hard again!" "19?" "Yes." "This month?" "Duh." =( i hate her.

I'm kind of supposed to do accounts now and kind of reminded myself not to get distracted, but I kind of cannot help it. oh well.. when will I change really? I'm close to hopelessness already. Maybe I need counselling or some sort. (counselling kinda reminds me of sac, somehow) Heh.

Caught The Convenant with rebeccalokehuiyingtheloser. and oh! Bumped into Far and DUC!! LOL. the crazy horny guy I knew from MI. damn, he looked so much better now that he doesnt wear specs anymore and somehow he just looked cuter! hahaha! :D Okay, anyway The Convenant was quite a good show and oh boy..the lovely cast. Reid is soooo cute!!! I was a little disappointed when I thought he was going to be the bad guy in the show..but he's not!(: but still.....he becomes rarely seen on screen as the show goes.. )= Toby Hemingway! <3
Rebecca has inborn lesbian particles in her cause she kept saying Sarah(Laura Remsey) was pretty and she empasized that she's only watching the movie for her. -.-
HAHA! and, we are NOT the redarded duel. She's a solo for it.
But it's okay, I still love you becks. hahaha
(:

It's almost 11. I should try out accounts if not it'll be a waste of time to even go to school just to fail everything in the end. =
Oh!! I want to go supermarket shopping soon! (with lodsa cash) so I can buy all the food in the world!! :D

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

7:44 AM

I told eelin to tell her ex-boyfriend this "you suck as a boyfriend. and you are a fucker for calling me a bitch. get yourself killed" she salutes me for that line (:

anyway, celebrated Lisa's birthday today. Had steamboat, cake and I like F.R.I.E.N.D.S. It's funny really. It's nice to see most of everyone again.(=


It's annoying how some people can get. I mean, tolerance has its limit. You've reached it and you're still unaware. Must I burst in fumes at your face before your sensitivity actually does activate, but by then you realise it's too late? Will you just cut all that crap like acting like you know so much but in fact you don't really understand?

It's good anger only lasts momentarily for me. Forgiveness makes happiness happen. I want to go to church and pray for peace in me. There's hatred in me which I don't fancy acknowledging.

Bless me.

Monday, November 06, 2006

9:05 AM

Don't call me lazy. I just typed a hell lot of things in an entry but decided it shouldn't be posted.

I'll talk about normal stuff like school here.
Lets see..

school is almost fine.

Thats all.

Saturday, November 04, 2006

10:20 AM

Your virginity at this is kind of adorable.
But, your ego is undeniably huge.
Handling you is tougher than I thought.

Anyway, I really need a shopping SPREE. As in, I've been buying stuff so randomly in a period of time, it's not exactly as enjoyable. Sprees are happier and exciting. :D
Second pay, come soon. I need to go back to those stores I only dared to look at.

Went out with a favourite friend. Town is surprisingly quiet on a saturday. Anyway, we ate at LJ, i bought a top and I told myself that shall be the last one. But of course, thats a truth too short to last. Perhaps being broke can be a blessing in disguise. It's gonna be The L Word marathoning with becks and tabby! yay yay (=
I'm excited.

5.11.06
<3

Friday, November 03, 2006

9:34 AM

I'm just left with question marks all over my head.

What the hell?

Girls are silly.

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