hits and counting :D

I sit & laugh with friends at what we've all been through
But I still catch my breath when someone mentions you.
We move on, put those dreams away
Hoping that we'll find them come some rainy day.
How could I know that everything would change?
Except the way I miss you.

8:18 AM What are scary society people- those who hate and bitch (to an audience, esp). I think I cannot take her yakkings and immaturity anymore. She thinks I didn't hear what she said? Come on, your voice resembles the wail of an elephant but I pretended I was deaf and I swear I would have won an oscar for it. Be glad I didn't fling that mop on your sagging face just now. Fucker. I seriously felt like exploding after I heard that, and controlling a ticking bomb isn't easy! I should have just confronted her- contemplated, but of course it's smarter not to. I hope she works this friday though. I already have the whole course of our fight in my head and I shall make it happen and then during the finale I'll scream at the top of my lungs "I QUIT!". But, it still wouldn't be a big deal that I quit.. So then, following Iggy's plan, everybody will shout "we quit too!" Ultra Unity! Chio.
Muahahahaha!!-evil grin-


How very sheepish imagination uh.

ah well, not all of us have that intention to quit. At least, not so soon as I do.

I realised I've been having rather terrible mood swings lately.
Maybe it's because of lack of sleep, as always.

12:10 PM School sucked today. I think I'm gonna detest learning business stats pretty much.

Anyway, I took a cab down to work after school. I cant say it was a bad experience, but I felt like shit. Okay, something along those lines. Anyway I think it was mostly just Me. You see, taxis charge 10 cents for every 25secs of waiting or less, and the traffic jam was really horrible. I was just sitting there staring helplessly at the fucking meter watching it rising like no one's busniess. so, I questioned the taxi driver about how that thing works, and he explained to me. but i was hoping his answer would be that the meter spoiled or something. By the time we passed the jam, I was freaking late for work. From just school to bedok inter that area, the fare was already like 13 bucks! I so do not have enough money to pay him luh! I tried praying but somehow I didnt really pray cause I thought Jesus wouldnt really help me for being penniless. At that moment and depressing atmosphere, I could have burst out in tears. So, I was like "Uncle, I got something to tell you.. I only have $11 to pay you.." No reaction, drives on. "Uncle..did you hear me? I only have $11 to pay you." -crosses fingers- Oh no, I was telling myself..I cant possibly get off and wait for a freakin' bus! I'm so late and blacklisted in cartel! Then, he was like, "Nevermind la, nobody wanted that traffic jam right. Just pay me $11 lor." I swear I could have pounced on him and give him a fucking enormous filled-with-love hug! haha! Rock on cabbys! But, I still hate the whole cab system. You pay extra $3 because of the peak hour charge and the public holiday eve charge. Then, being the peak hour as it is, you still have to pay for waiting in a traffic jam. Like what the hell. Pay so much to wait and curse.

)=

rah!

9:49 AM I swear you know!! eastside cartel sucks! How can they let me work till 1 fucking am on monday then start work at 9am the next day!! WHAT?! 6 hours of pathetic sleep? and then slog the next day? Alright, I know! They want me killed! Confirm! This is not the first time they did this to me. GRRR!

Anyway! I'm quiting after this week! I better do. I will not change my mind I will not change my mind I will not change my mind I will not change my mind.

SIGH.

10:38 AM

9:56 AM Have I mentioned I miss being 13 so very much?
I miss laughing hysterically with justine and bernie.
I miss nicolette before she gave me that tone on the phone about whether to go to sentosa with the others or meet us.
I miss being in love without having to worry about friendships.
I miss all that puppy love/childish yet sweet crushes back then.
I miss rebecca. I feel like having steamboat with her.
I miss seeing everybody i love everyday.
I miss not being academically handicapped.
I miss being the the family's favourite and knowing that I am.
I miss being acknowledged a smart child.
I miss talking to abigail every night about totally nothing important at all.
I miss chatting on the phone till i fall asleep and wake up feeling silly but great.
I miss not being so paranoid about everything.
I miss laughing so hard till my stomach aches.
I miss sjab and its days of fun and torture.
I miss opening my wallet at the end of the week and still find money inside.
I miss having the self-discipline I had in primary school which lasted till sec 1 and no further.
I miss being mean to my brothers without having to feel guilty about it.
I miss meiyi when she wasnt studying that much and we could spend saturday nights together without her books and notes.
I miss not being late and when it hasnt become a habit.
I miss having a maid in the house.
I miss being very young and immature.
I miss the good girl in me last time.


I would relive those times if I could. But, my life isnt that bad actually. I suppose people change, so do I. I'll just stay the way I've become, since I grew from that good girl, somehow.

10:30 AM ITS Friday the 13th & KB's 17th BIRTHDAY! Though you're really mean to me now and bully me on most occasions, I'll be benevolent and still sing you a birthday song:



11:44 AM

You Are An Independent Girlfriend!

Whoa, Ms. Independent! Your guy digs your modern style... But he's sometimes left to wonder if you really like him. Keep that unique spirit, but show him your love a bit more often. No worries - you're light years away from smothering him!

8:39 AM I'm a stupid shopaholic! hahaha Spent like $72 on chains! hahahah retail therapy eh!! I feel like a broke dumbo. It's Okay!! This will be the last time im buying chains. NO MORE. STOP!

Oh.. I JUST GOT THE SACK TOO! WAHAHAHA FUCK CARTEL AND ITS STUPID MANAGER DISGUSTINGLY NAMED EUNICE.

I think I'm a little overly optimistic for my own good sometimes. I should really try being a whiny,pessimistic,asshole and admit to being a loser. And oh, it took me rather long enough to realise I suck! hahaha i need to SCREAMM!

1:39 PM Hello, this shall be temporary skin for the moment. I dunno how the previous one screwed itself.

Anyway, I'm going over to abby's place later! purely play time.(:

Went to my granduncle's wake just now. Prayed and chatted. Btw, you cant deny a corpse looks as scary as it sounds.

Shit! Its almost 5am!

bye!

11:41 AM Ponned work today, supposed to be 'sick'. Heard the manager got fucked-up so didn't put my schedule down for next week. WHATEVER. Petty 30-year-old biatch.

Anyway, hung out with cat today. Watched Rob b Hood. A rather pleasant movie. The baby was gorgeously cute! so is Octopus.haha (whats his real name?)
Ate at Fish n Co. Ordered the seafood platter for 2 and the seamonkey something monster drink. Tasted like it was just purely pineapples and ice. Or was it?
After that was just chilling at cartel. chocolate cakes, drinks and conversations. <3 it.
It always doesnt seem like theres enough time. Hours pass too quickly with her.

My granduncle passed away yesterday morning. It just dawned on me that I'll never see him again. We werent close. It's just that tiny grief that someone in my life has disappeared and theres no chance of contact again. A little prayer I'll say, your absence is dismay, may He welcome your stay, in Heaven, your place.

Life is not a small word.

9:10 AM Currently addicted to Jay Chou's Tui Hou. Haha. That's the hanyu pinyin for it right?

hmm.I'm very tempted to pon work tmr. Oh for once, let me give in to the evil one.

I'm starting to detest ghost shows in which all the leading actresses sport the same long-black-hair-almost-covering-pale-face style. It's time movie producers ought to realise this overratedness. Maybe they should make monster or supernatural shows instead. Much more interesting ehh


Anyway! I'm soo bored of doing everything I do! rawrrr

11:37 AM

8:48 AM I was walking along the tables and overheard this lady telling her friend, "Oh, another of my girl friends just died." I didn't hear more of it. not so kpo yah. haha, but just imagine one of you died, and I go, "Hey, you know XXX just died", like its no big deal. Erm..maybe that'll only happen to Abigail. haha!IM KIDDING K!

choy ah.

Then in the bus, I was beside this young lady who was talking on the phone the whole time. I was listening to her conversation while she was comfortably chatting at the top of her voice about how she rejected this foriegn guy who just came to Singapore and made friends with her then wanted to date her bacause they've known each other for 2 months. Btw, people in London start dating each other after knowing each other for a week(that was what she quoted from that guy). Er, anyway, she was saying one of her friends had cancer. Yah, so after gotten that in my ears, I started realising young adults are kind of dying fast.

So beware, Lionel. HAHA.

choy!

My mouth needs slapping i know. Heh.


This is so another crappy entry. hah.

"We were actually very nice people until we became full-timers. I'm not intentionally mean one." Oh well, so maybe you were accidentally mean to people. And, you cant be nice because you are a full-timer. Somebody please; explain the link, the logic and the whole sense behind this statement.

XD

9:19 AM Talking to some people makes me wanna puke blood at the computer screen. Please, start thinking whether you make sense before you allow your fingers to create rubbish on the keyboard!


2:08 AM I'm being a filial daughter here going home for dinner with the family to spend this 3 hours break from work.

Ok, maybe I just have nowhere else to go.

I went up bus 12 just now and of all empty seats, I chose to sit next to this Filipino-maid-look lady. She pressed the bell upon reaching my stop, so i was like, oh ok so we alight together. She walked to my gate with me, and i was like, oh so we're going to the same place. then I thought, wow, we might be staying at the block too. and indeed, we walked to the same(my) block! haha and into the same lift.. same floor..same unit..same room..

LOL.

nah, just same block. If only she stayed on the same storey, I'll tell her how amazingly fated we are, and so we should just be best friends.


Ok, dinner's ready. And then back to slogging at cartel. Sian.





11:12 AM