hits and counting :D

I sit & laugh with friends at what we've all been through
But I still catch my breath when someone mentions you.
We move on, put those dreams away
Hoping that we'll find them come some rainy day.
How could I know that everything would change?
Except the way I miss you.

10:29 AM My lifestyle is going through a disaster.

I swear im becoming a nocturnal.

I sleep at 6am till 2 plus in the afternoon.

What do I do till 6am?

Random stuff that has nothing to do with stupid notes or books.

OB is digesting me, not the other way round as supposedly.

My exhaustion is extreme, beyond description.

Fuck OB and its stupid countless thoeries.

I need to study it still, sadly.

I can only read and hope miraculously I can remember it for my exam tomorrow.

Im a tempted miserable girl trying not to give in to the devil..(the yellow soft comfortable Bed).

*screams in sorrow

8:16 AM I FEEL LIKE STABBING YOU

STABBING YOU
STABBING YOU
STABBING YOU

GO AND DIE YOU FUCKER.


i want to pretend that this has never happened.

9:33 AM im really sad right now.

i wanna talk to anyone about nothing.

who's able to hear my silent cries?

9:12 AM im very very angry.

but, i've seen it coming. from the first time i saw you.


and again, its all going to be just fine..

(this is so Kingshaw)

6:16 AM some people are getting on my nerves.

just tolerating the urge to scream in their faces!

ugh!!

i must control my emotions.

its okay its okay.. be calm.

9:21 AM At age 4 success is . . . not peeing in your pants.
At age 12 success is . . . having friends.
At age 17 success is . . . having a drivers license.
At age 35 success is . . . having money.
At age 50 success is . . . having money.
At age 70 success is . . . having a drivers license.
At age 75 success is . . . having friends.
At age 80 success is . . . not peeing in your pants.

3:39 AM

The August Babies!

20/22 of the Class.

(=

1B17.

whipped cream, flour and salt we played
fish and chips, ice-cream and chocolate cake we ate
talking and playing at the viewing mall
could have easily made our day.

<3

.

Today, didnt study a single shit though i actually planned to! exams are in 2 weeks? erm, help.
and, its not helping when theres still comm skills report to be done by this Friday. AHH..

Watched France's fireworks along some road where we parked the car and sat in the boot with little Cyrus in my arms. He and his sister couldnt stop Woahing at every single firework, whereas meiyi and I couldnt stop laughing at them.

My uncle wanted to have prata so off to simpang to eat. There, I finally met long-lost friend, BERNIE!!! damn! been ages since i last saw her lah! stupid shit. pierced your belly button ahh.. hahaha.. I missed you buddy! <3

Expo at 8am tmr.bet with melvin toothead that ill be the Earliest! so, off to bed now! my coffee bean treat awaits me.(= Goodnight!

10:27 AM currently, the mood's pretty down. people around me and myself. i feel like im suffering from some..maybe, quarter-life crisis?

whatever. this just sucks.

i dun like it when a friend's down and i cant do anything for him/her, since i dunno whats wrong with him/her and neither does he/she wanna tell me. i dunno why actually. i tell that person almost everything. and when he/she is sad, he/she keeps it from me.

HAI..

now, im feeling worse.

2:24 AM SIGH.

THIS SHOULDN'T BE HAPPENING.

I DON'T LIKE!

wo hen xiang ai ta..

8:36 AM to dale:
dun ever put yourself down in comparison with other people.
i believe in karma. a good one will come back to you.(=


i dunno when ure serious actually.u fool around too much.. hai
im quite sad now. kind of, over you. this doesnt feel good.
she's pretty, she's yours.
whatever.

8:43 AM some things cannot be repaired.
once they fade,
feelings cannot be brought back.
lets hope some things are left behind.
that is,
the memories and our friendship.

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woke up in the late morning, which is pretty usual on weekends. ate this chocolate thing my mum bought last night. spent noon watching southpark videos then went to my dad's office to pray pray and burn paper money under the hot-burning-scorching-blazing-murderous sun. Paper money are interesting.there are even t-shirts and cloths for them to make clothes. anyway, this is my first time burning stuffs for the dead. Heard that there'll be 2 ghost months this yr. hmm..peace be with them..

grandmother's house at night..
was translating maths qns to chinese for the china little girl. and given my chinese standard, she didnt understand my chinglish either. Try translating area, pie, 30m/min, average speed into chinese. ok, maybe some of you can, but i cant alright! ahh my chinese is going way below down-under the drain. i dun even know what distance in chinese is.

Ah well, screw chinese.


i think i should adopt a healthier lifestyle from now onwards. i shall go to bed by 2am at the most, eat fixed meals, tolerate the urge to munch food at ungodly hours and start exercising! thats really important. i can begin to feel all the fats bulging out here and there. hahahaha

what the hell.


i cant begin to feel this way, i don't want to.

9:38 AM Went to town today after school
bought a blouse and a teddy bear!
the teddy was an indulgence and it's colourful.((=


hehs i just found out i have this super Weirdo neighbour. ok. ken, kb and melissa came over to my house downstairs cuz someone needed to shit badly.. haha. then the rest of us waited in the clubhouse and watched ppl play pool. ken played with this guy first then after that, This Weirdo Guy. he said his partner wasnt here yet, so he played with ken. he claimed to be damn lousy at the game and that he was just beginner and all.he even held the stick the wrong way!(he used the back of the stick to hit the balls). While they were playing, he talked abt this twin brother of his who's really pro at pool, and even represented Singapore for it, also for swimming and biking too. he also said his twin always played alone. And so, he lost to ken la. but he asked for another round..since his mysterious partner has not come. then suddenly! he became damn pro in the next round sia! maybe not Pro pro, but he was so much better. and so, in the end he won ken. and, he acted damn psycho throughout the whole thing i swear! scary ass.

Anyway, he said his twin's name is Michael Chong or smth. heard of him anyone?

ahh! the fact that remains - i stay NEAR him!
i hope i wun see him ever again.

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alright, am really tired now..nights.


*my yellow rose and rainbow teddy.

9:00 AM im a little sad
i wanna watch some fairytales now
thanks abby for beauty and the beast
fantasy is great
but the only sad thing is that
its not real

i wanna have magic.