hits and counting :D

I sit & laugh with friends at what we've all been through
But I still catch my breath when someone mentions you.
We move on, put those dreams away
Hoping that we'll find them come some rainy day.
How could I know that everything would change?
Except the way I miss you.

7:33 AM OB : C
Comm skills : C (i need 0.5 more for a grade B!! ugh.)

my dad said "im not expecting your results to be good, but i hope u'll surprise me." aww..dad, how does Cs and Ds sound to you?

im dreading getting back econs.i dun wish to fail that badly.

wore formal today for csa presentation. nasi lemak said we made good effort.thats the only good comment i think. ahh..bad teachers.. rahh.

hmm, anyway met up with dear abigail foo today for scary movie 4 and dinner. she lent me her dad's phone, cuz my phone's screen kinda spoiled. how sweet.(=

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don't tire me out with all these.
im starting to feel drained, again, just like the last time.

9:43 AM i dunno whats wrong with you. its so sudden, that it scares me. you are not even giving me a clue. this is so depressing..

my neck's aching right now. talking on my handphone really sucks without a headphone.or should i say 'talking' on my handphone (well, since neither are making any sounds).


ure making me cry!

12:16 PM it was clean, it was pleasant. yet, it sucked.

ahhh

i dunno what i want.i think i do prefer singlehood still.(=


nevermind, give me the time i need.

11:37 AM aiyah aiyah aiyahhh

im So Very Stressed.


i think i made a terrible mistake. yes, quite terrible. and i cant do anything about it. cause if i were to, im afraid things will end up so wrong. sighhh~ how?

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lets just see how things go la huh.

8:58 AM hmm.went bugis with catherine today. bought so many things la. total expenses: $78.
is that a lot? oh well, i think its been a while since i've actually spent this much. this shows that i dun actually spend alot huh!-which is good news. so anyway, im so happy i Finally got a skirt! took me ages to find one i really liked.(=

ok.anyway, i spent the first part of the day with mummy and we had lunch at vientai. we kinda talked abt alot of stuffs. most of it abt her life la.oh well..all i can say is, her life is boring. LOL. all she does is study study study.she tells me she was a very sensible child.. erm, okayyy

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hmm..recently im kinda annoyed with this person. actually, Very Annoyed. like oh please? ure an adult you know that? and yet ure acting like a petty asshole. yaahhh..Asshole. i mean given the age, shouldnt you be a bit more mature? like being able to take things in ur stride and not let whatever affect you so much that u have to shed tears? maybe ure just too emotional for me to handle la huh. dunno la. whateverrr

but, i do actually miss talking to you la. its quite sad that you choose to avoid me. oh well, like i can do anything abt it. i just wanna tell ya, that i really like you as a friend.

hai.

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i think i do like life now still.

7:41 AM i dunno why i should be pissed over such a thing when its your problem, not mine. i think its just the fact that you keep talking to me abt yourself being so depressed and whatever hell ure feeling. so yes..when you tell me things like that, i do expect myself to console you and all since ure my friend. but, you dun wanna tell me ur problem. so whatever, up to you whether to say anot. so ill just say its ok...try not to think abt it alrdy and cheer up and that i hope ull be over ur annoymous problem soon. then u just had to tell me things like "hope will be over soon...at most store in my heart memory.. think still have space." what crap is that. and then u say u dun tell ppl ur problems cuz u just dun. u make me wonder how u actually survive emotionally. ok.the point is, if u actually intend to keep ur weird problems to yourself, then dun even start talking abt it to ur friends! and worse still, tell them things like 'you will go through the pain yourself' and even say "i think im born to 'absorb' sadness from other people and my sadness.. god created me this way." get a brain la. if thats the case, god is weird. but everyone knows god is er, good. so u get what i mean? ure my friend you know, telling me things like that just makes sad also. you know? i don't understand whats wrong with you.im clueless so i dunno how to help. and thus that makes me annoyed with myself. and with you too, cuz u make me feel this way. UGH.