hits and counting :D

I sit & laugh with friends at what we've all been through
But I still catch my breath when someone mentions you.
We move on, put those dreams away
Hoping that we'll find them come some rainy day.
How could I know that everything would change?
Except the way I miss you.

9:56 AM life is good. except for one exception.and im not getting too bothered about it anymore. somehow, i have good tolerance.


work at pizza hut is tiring, and we don't earn much.but the people are actually working there cause of each other. its fun over there.so thats why im stuck between pizza hut and that comic shop. mummy found a new job for me.yah..that comic shop that pays more while you dont have to tire yourself out like in pizza hut. but! think about it. i Hate anime.and anime is all over the place in that comic shop.i used to even think why anime fans actually like anime.(no offence to li jing, kim and other Anime Fans)see,i Hate anime so much. imagine that mental madness ill have to face!


anyway, i saw pierre png and mark lee on wednesday at different areas in tampines.theres this thing about going out with catherine and bumping into celebs. like the ruan mian mian incident at the airport. and, she actually saw Ella from S.H.E at century square foodcourt some time ago. then just yesterday, she thought she saw lee jai wei at tamp sports hall. but thought only la.i managed to convince her it wouldnt be lee jai wei. haha.


Just these few days, i have this urge to spend money. you know,just buy whatever you want without thinking twice. yah.its not good.esp when im not earning much. AHH. fuck pizza hut..

and oh..i found a new tp business friend! Jazreel, who actually happens to be a close friend of my childhood friend, and jillian and gloria's friend. haha.ok. at least, some familiar faces in my course now.(=


hmm..ok.lets talk about today. i ate ya kun!! =D ..and i broke a few glasses at work.it was fucking pai seh.. esp this particular glass that had to smash so loudly.so that i had to tolerate stares from customers, not forgetting all that exclaimations. totally spoilt my afternoon. i dont think i dare serve drinks anymore. horrible experience.


ok.i dont believe im not tired at this hour.its like 3.15am. i felt so sleepy just a few hrs ago. hmm..i should sleep now. (=


8:08 AM my family went hiking this morning.really early..while i stayed in bed til noon.and spent the rest of the day watching travel and living. went for dinner at this french restaurant.the food was great.

it has been fun making fun at abby these few days. she actually believed that we took a moaning video of her when she was sleeping.and that she has hair disease.haha.ok..its all inside joke.

i hope tp-business course has nice people. sigh

8:15 AM slept over at si hui's place last night. was 'supposed' to help the juniors with their preparation for com the next day, but hell, we just almost played the whole time. i think we play too much, thats why we were never productive..

Around 3am, jocelyn had a really serious eye infection.the eyes swelled so badly, that it made my hair stand when i saw her teary face. we admitted her to cgh and she was warded there.

so that means, the sec 2 team had no commander. clare had to take the job then,as fifth man. im quite proud of her actually.just spent a couple of minutes teaching her the commands and she cld grasp it so quickly.she didnt make any mistake during footdrill at all! so anyway, overall, the sec 3s have improved, but they just lack confidence..esp chris!(you idiot.stop laughing all the time!) and, the sec 4s, are just perhaps, complacent, and too playful. haha.

Congrats you people for winning the Best Footdrill!

dont get disheartened everyone, just train hard again for next year!

4:29 AM thought about it real hard. its better to let go. this just solves everything.

ok.

i would not put my hopes high on tomorrow's trials. i have a bad feeling about it. let me row and run the best i can.


please?

6:40 AM i don't get you

8:23 AM thought that it'll be better if i went down to tp with my mum to hope to speak to the principal or smth. but what hell, the gateman said the sch operates on a 5-day wk.so, no one's in. ah well.. ill go on mon then.

my mum had this rash decision to get a new phone for me today, and also get my brother a freaking mobile plan. so we tired ourselves out the entire afternoon looking for my mum's perfect handphone number for my bro. but what shit, she claimed that all the numbers werent good enough.so, no phone for me. but, theres still tomorrow.(=

i guess my parents are actually more excited about poly for me. my dad was trying to talk 'sense' into me that jc life sucks and all.that poly is better. he kept telling me about his experience in poly and how he heard stories abt people suffering in jc. ah ha. ok.lets just wait for the appeal results luh.



tell me, whatever's on your mind.

7:53 AM im sad.

thats all.

7:37 AM crashed tpjc again.just sat and played cards the whole time.

met up with tcc after that. took like forever to decide where to go.then finally settled for marina square.ate at bk,and chatted and chatted and chatted.much of the topics were about gay construction workers and horror stories. headed to the esplanade, sat around and played cards. it wasnt really approving to 'gamble' in public,esp in our school uniforms i suppose, so we were kinda getting all paranoid abt getting caught when this cleaner was suspicious of reporting us. so off we fled to suntec. wandered around aimlessly til we got tired and decide to go home. so thats all. but it was still kinda enjoyable being with them.(=


gotta go tpjc to appeal tmr. im quite nervous about it now..
Sigh.

4:42 AM cheer up with cookies and cream ice cream. i suppose that might work for my current state of serious depression.

actually maybe some vulgar-theraphy might work..

fuck fuck fuck fuck
fuck to you, fuck to you, fuck to you

this is so fucking depressing.i am depressed cuz im depressed over a fucking you. why! why the fuck must posting be so diffcult? why are things going so wrong? WHY!


fuck it.

every 10 seconds i sigh to myself. thats so very retarded.