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I sit & laugh with friends at what we've all been through
But I still catch my breath when someone mentions you.
We move on, put those dreams away
Hoping that we'll find them come some rainy day.
How could I know that everything would change?
Except the way I miss you.

3:32 AM had a bad morning today.
had mornin runs n stoopid agnes lau forgot to tell e class,
resulting in us lookin desperately for a shirt.
hurz...ran around e skool for a number of rounds..
mi n beck loke din wanna perspire,so decided to walk.
see teacher den start running..haa.
after e runs,den dose ppl hu wore outside shorts or not in their pe attire gotta stay back do pushups.
hurhurz..i was one of dem,but becky instigated mi to leave.so ya..

lessons were quite boring today..
maybe cuz wasnt in e mood today.
haa...was kinda quiet today.
din reallie feel lyk tokin ba.
ppl were tellin mi tt i looked dead.
hahazx..!
alright.recess was damn early la.
9.15 n had no appetite to eat yet.but ya...
forced myself to eat.
hmm...slept during RE lesson n was rather dreamy durin lit.
hurhurz...maybe cuz slept kinda late last nite.
was tokin to her on e fone til 3 plus.haa.

after skool,had our own sec3s sjab meeting.
gotta plan for POP n e trainin schedules.
taking over le...got alot of things to handle.haa.
left skool around 3.
felt quite bad cuz made her wait at e spiral stairs for quite long ba.
hur...went back wif her.
was teaching her how to walk properly on e way hm.lolz..!
reach my estate le,den din feel lyk going hm so fast,
so stayed at e playground on top of e carpark wif her for quite sum time.
hmm...felt quite sleepy,so finally decided to go hm.
hahazx...

reach hm,bathe,n ate lodsa chipsmore.
hahzx..of all e choc cookies, famous amos is stil e best!
hahaZx..!!
juz found out tt she took my housekeys hm.
hurz...forgotten all about it.
stoopid gal.




4:03 AM gotta rush throu my june holiday work.
*sigH*
been telling myself tt but nothin's done.
omg...dis ish bad.
i wont be able to do well if i continue being lyk dis.
haiz...
i pity all students in s'pore.
wad a sad life we've got.
hafta spend almost 2 decades of our life facing dose books,
stressing ourselves everyday.
hurhurz...

alright.was a lil earlier for skool today.
was hoping to see her once i enter e skool but she's not dere yet.
haa.
well,at least i did in e hall.
hmm...evania came to tok to mi today.
she was worried bout sumting
n was lyk seeking for my help.
haiz...evania arhz...
pls be clear of everything happening around u.
u seem so blur sia.
wad if it reallie happened ar..
dunno wad u gonna do le.
grow up pls....!!

had lessons as usual,
n was rather proud of myself cuz i paid more attention in class today..!
yaY..!!hope will continue lyk dis in future..yep.
after skool,went for sjab meeting.
den went back to class to stick sum things on e notice board.
after tt went market to eat wif justine n bernie.
went back to skool for our bags n stoned dere awhile.
den took cab home wif justine.
hurhurz.
hmm...gtg su's house later to pass her sumting for juliana.
alright...she has finally woken up frm her nap.
haa.=)

4:58 AM today skool start again.
haiz...so sian mans.
hafta face all dose terrible tests n work.
today got chem n amaths test.
intended to study amaths cuz din wanna disappoint mrs cheong.
haa...come to tink of it,she's actually veh kind de.
although she gives tons n tons of hw but ya..
its for our own good wad.
hurz..
but din study for it.
regret lyk hell sia.
mi reallie dun wanna fail tt test de.hai.
stare at e paper,1st ques dunno how to start.
felt lyk cryin sia..
..den look around my classroom,
everyone seems to be thinking n writing wif confidence,
so tot tt cannot be so loser.
so skipped dose ques i dunno,
which is almost e wole paper.
wrote lodsa crap sia..
forgot all e formulas n all dose stuff.
haiz...i REGRET NOT STUDYING...!!!
alright...too late.
hai.i REGRET not studying chem too..!!!
e ques is e same as e midyr paper itself lo...
IF i studied e stoopid paper..
sure can make it one lo.
..but ya.
too late.

alrightz...enuff of regrets.
timetable has changed,
seats in class changed too.
now im lyk sitting at e end of e class next to e front door.
miss juliana claimed tt she put mi dere cuz im handling e toilet passes.
den she say dose ppl sitting at e end of e class hu r QUIET so tt wen JLo or hueva walk pass will not see anyyone talkin.
hurz...so she's trying to say tt im quiet..?
lolz..!!ya man.
sitting wif rachel n lisa now.
dey oways tok to each other den leave mi out de...=((
but i still have beck loke behind mi.=)
hahaZx..!!

hmm...its happening to mi again..!
ugh...dis time is diff.
cuz im happy.=)

10:28 PM oMg!!...tmr's sjab camp.
ugHh...!!torture for 4 days..!!!
dun look forward to it mans.
haiz...
den after camp on thurs still gotta go for dis syf public duty.
hmm.den on fri got arts alive preview.(i dun wanna go!!)
on sat got our adults first aid test(afa).
den sun gotta rush throu homework le...
hurhurz...my life ish so sad...

yest was eunice's birthday,
but we can only celebrate it wif her today.
hahazx..going to her house later for steamboat..!!
hurhurz...too bad cant stay over...
blame it on e camp.
hai.alright...niway,bernie n mi made a cake for her..!!
hahazx...its all so creamy n e amount of chocolate we put is horrendous..!!
haa...hope dey dun get disgusted by it thou.
n tmr's aggie's birthday.
haiz..so many ppl's birthday dis month n i haven got everyone's birthday presents yet...!
im gonna be soo broke..

alright..gotta go le.
stoopid bro go complain to my mum tt im nt doing my work!!
ughh!!wen will he stop being so big-mouth/nosy/irritating?!?!!
he's so tryin to act big man.
walau...act til so gay somemore.
sec one already stil so petty n crys so easily..
yuckS man!!
*slap slap slap his face!!**

10:28 PM oMg!!...tmr's sjab camp.
ugHh...!!torture for 4 days..!!!
dun look forward to it mans.
haiz...
den after camp on thurs still gotta go for dis syf public duty.
hmm.den on fri got arts alive preview.(i dun wanna go!!)
on sat got our adults first aid test(afa).
den sun gotta rush throu homework le...
hurhurz...my life ish so sad...

yest was eunice's birthday,
but we can only celebrate it wif her today.
hahazx..going to her house later for steamboat..!!
hurhurz...too bad cant stay over...
blame it on e camp.
hai.alright...niway,bernie n mi made a cake for her..!!
hahazx...its all so creamy n e amount of chocolate we put is horrendous..!!
haa...hope dey dun get disgusted by it thou.
n tmr's aggie's birthday.
haiz..so many ppl's birthday dis month n i haven got everyone's birthday presents yet...!
im gonna be soo broke..

alright..gotta go le.
stoopid bro go complain to my mum tt im nt doing my work!!
ughh!!wen will he stop being so big-mouth/nosy/irritating?!?!!
he's so tryin to act big man.
walau...act til so gay somemore.
sec one already stil so petty n crys so easily..
yuckS man!!
*slap slap slap his face!!**

9:00 AM I don't understand why
See it's burning me to hold onto this
I know this is something I gotta do
But that don't mean I want to
What I'm trying to say is that I-love-you I just
I feel like this is coming to an end
And its better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you
I gotta let it burn

It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's comin from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think you're gonna change
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby
Plus theres so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn

When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Sendin' pages I ain't supposed to
Got somebody here but I want you
Cause the feelin ain't the same find myself
Callin' her your name
Ladies tell me do you understand?
Now all my fellas do you feel my pain?
It's the way I feel
I know I made a mistake
Now it's too late
I know she ain't comin back
What I gotta do now
To get my shorty back
Ooo ooo ooo ooooh
Man I don't know what I'm gonna do
Without my booo
You've been gone for too long
It's been fifty-leven days, um-teen hours
Imma be burnin' till you return (let it burn)

When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn (let it burn, let it burn, you gon'learn)
Let it burn (gotta let it burn)
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know its best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry

Ooh ooh ooh ooh ooh oooh
Ooh ooh oooh (can ya feel me burnin'?)
Ooh ooh ooh oooh ooh oooh

So many days, so many hours
I'm still burnin' till you return

When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn


3:08 AM hmm...
alright..im back in s'pore.
after spending much much time at e beaches in quantan.
am kinda tanned now.hurhurz..
haiz...juz came back frm sjab training.
dun reallie feel lyk updating.
hur.
bye peeps.
got amahs tutorial tmr.*sighs*


4:01 AM hmm...juz ate my dinner.
my whole family's going to quantan on thurs.
but i got camp..
n i wanna go for camp.
but my cuzin,mother,father,brother,n cuzins
wanna mi go to quantan wif dem.hurz..
wad sld i do..?
feel kinda bad cuz wil be bianging mei yi.
she'll be so lonely dere..
without dis wonderful cuzin of hers to pei her..
hahazx..!!
hmm...guess i'll juz go ahead wif my camp ba.
yay..!!e first time my family's leaving mi alone in singapore..!!
and oso got half of sat n half of sunday of freedom..!!
wahz...been waiting for dis kinda ting to happen sia.
hahazx...

hmm...watched shrek 2 yest,
e show was veh funny n kinda lame too.
hurhurz..
i love tt kitty sia.
tt stoopid innocent look it liked to give.
hurhurz...alright.shall not elaborate further.
hmm..stayed at home today,
time seemed to pass quite fast.
juz stoned..n listened to e radio.
haa..my life's getting boring.
haiz...

gtg watch my show le..!!
camp's on wed.
gonna be fun..!!
got meeting tmr at 9am.
hurz..
buaiZzzz...

//miss u gal.u noe tt..?

8:44 AM hmm..wanna update,
but too lazy.
hahazx..
been tokin to lodsa ppl,
whose hearts r aching.
hahzx...
kana affected by their mood le.
hurz...
guess i'll juz leave my radio on,
n stone my life away...



8:52 AM hmm...dis is my 2nd entry today.
cant slp.so ya..
juz read all her past entries..
got a lil..
heartbrokened..?
hur.
wads dere for mi to say...?
dere u are smiling away...
here i am...
feeling all dis hurt..?
its so cold...in n out.
n wen dis feelin cums,
all i need is a hug frm u.

where r u wen i need u?
where's my babyboy?

love sux big time.

bloody bastard..!!!!

8:17 AM today went danielle's house.
supposedly to plan for e 1.5 camp.
lodsa suggestions given,
but nothin much came out of it.
well...at least we done something.=)
haa...n danielle was being an idiot.
she made us wait for her for 1/2 hr.
den later led us one big round of her estate.
hurz.danielle..!!u sux..!!
hurhurz..
den mi, jillian n dan were walkin faster than e rest.plus dan led dem wrongly,so dey kinda lost their way..den glad finally caught us n ran after us.but we were faster n ran into e lift n pressed many buttons to lead them astray..stupidly,dey fell into our trap.n went to e 12 storey.hurhurz..!!*evil laughter*
far saw us at dan's window n started callin our names, makin e whole neighbourhood noisy.lolz..!! kae...nevamind..we let dem in.but eunice,iris,val n joy were still lost..! poor things...called our handphones but we din ans.den combed e whole block... eunice got a bit angry,so we went down to apologise.hurhurz...but eu eu wont angry for long de la...rite "u nice"..?
haa...yea...spent most of e time havin fun losing our way.
alrightz.dan said she'll be providing us lunch.
so ate bread at her house for lunch.
hmm...
alrightz...walked to whitesands to eat.
den went home around 6.
hurhurz....

tmr got council outin at pasir ris beach.
hahazx...
meeting at inter at 10.
haa...but its only 11 now..!!
cant slp at dis time wor.
gonna go stoning now..
hai.
my life is so sad.
hurhurz..

//was i supposed to be wrong loving u?

u love someone.
nden u let go.
n love somebody else.
is tt called love..??
i dun understand.

Uugh..!!!3825 633...!!!!!